euthanasia

Haih. I think recently, my everyday life is like a coach potato. (wrong usage of vocab here). I mean, well, i eat a lot of snack foods, which contain a lots dosage of preservatives. I think, my prediction is, im going to suffer from high blood pressure when im 40, and then heart attack at 50, and brain deterioration at around 40 or something. My DNA gene will be altered due to the high explosion of chemical preservatives in my body. Oh i can’t imagine about my future with all this chronic disease.

I have a severe addiction to sugar u know? Im addicted to sugar and chocolate. I can eat the whole 10 sweets of choclairs in just one day. And in the same time i can eat the whole 1 packet of Maggie in one week. Now whats worst can be than that? My mum said, Maggie contains a lot of oil, and MSG thats going to eat up my precious folded brain. In other term, its a brain degenerative.

And i think, by 26 im going to suffer from a stressful life. I’ve led a very2 stressful life because of mama. Hahaha. I shouldn’t blame anybody here. But yes, seriously, mama had made my life so stressful. And my hormone got imbalance every day, every month. No, no. Don’t get me wrong here. I didn’t blame mama for this. Mama doesn’t know. Mama cares nothing about me. Its just a mean of stupidity. My stupidity.

So, all in all, these are all the prediction of what im going to suffer in another 30-40 years from now:

1)high blood pressure at 45

2)diabetes at 40

3)severe depression at 26

4)heart attack at 50

And if i still didn’t die at this time, then most probably,

6)Alzheimers disease at 58

Or if not,

7) its a Parkinson disease at 58.

What a pathetic life is this?

At least, i hope during my last breath in this world, mama or daddy is beside me, same goes to all my children. Hahahah. Thats sounds better.

After all, Euthanasia should be practiced if this is the case. I would rather someone stop my beating heart secretly rather than i spent all my life suffering from all this disease, using the machine as my living mechanism.

But i think, all these can be changed once mama’s attitude change. Haha! That will be a stupid miracle. Ridiculous.

falling leaves

huwh..i have Just finished reading a marvellous story book, ''Falling Leaves'' by Adeline Yen Mah. Oh mine! You wouldn't believe me. I finished reading it in one whole night! That’s a perfect indicator that this novel is incredibly splendid, and you should as well read it.

Ok firstly, how did I measure the wonderfulness of a novel? Of course, the first one is because it’s related to history and classical instilments. And not to be forgotten, it’s a true story. The storyline goes onward around 1900 to twentieth century, setting at Shang Hai, Hong Kong, and Tianjin. Back to her old great grand aunt and grandmother. It’s about this unwanted daughter, Adeline, who was tortured by her step-mother after her mother's death from a misgiving birth.

Adeline’s mother died when she gave birth to her, so that the whole member family hate her for that. Her father, remarried with a young girl, called Niang (mother in Chinese), who have a mixture of French and Chinese blood. Niang is so beautiful and arrogance as she possessed the western's blood. While Adeline’s father is among the wealthiest group of people, whose empire extends across the continent, within their family, everything is under Niang's regime. Her father started a programme of austerity, which means, an economic life, to teach his children the value of money. I kind of like Adeline character. She’s so hardworking girl, and a bookworm. She has an excellent grade since primary school, and ended up becoming a physician in the end of story. I just wish somehow, that in one i can bulged myself with books and never care about other things. Buts its just near to impossible.

well,,other than that, I actually cried several times reading this novel, because it concern during the post war, the second world war, the opium war, the cold war, where everything seems so fragile, and death and poverty were so familiar. And also, because how adeline had to suffer from the discrimination within her own family. She had never got the chance to see her own mother. And everyone was blaming her because of their mother’s death, regardless the fact that she’s just an infant at that time, incapable of even scratch her own toes. How come people can possess a so absurd thinking in the state of depression?

Mr. Vroege said, there were nearly 1 million of Chinese people died during the 1987's 8.0 scale ritcher's earthquake. and not to count the number of people who died because of malaria and misgiving birth in south Africa. and these discrete amount of people died have actually exceed the amount of Americans who died during 9/11,, but yet, no coverage ever made for this occurrence, while for 9/11, the coverage was so overextended that you wouldn’t click on any channel except to see those news broadcaster talking about it.

Life would never been fair.